Up Down Up Down

My mind teeter totters between thinking about the lasts and all the firsts. 
My eyes start to sting when I think that he just spent his last night in his bed here at home, 
but then I start to imagine how their dorm room will look when they are done setting it up! 
I reflect on when he needed to hold my hand and then I wonder what he will all do when I let go. 
The empty closet 😢...but now all the piles will be in Manhattan instead of my living room. 😊 
Up and down. 
A whirlwind of all the emotions. 
I’m going to miss the sound of his footsteps coming up the stairs 
but that is overshadowed as I anticipate where each step will end up taking him. 
Up. 
Down. 
Up. 
Down.